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he said “i respect you bonnie.”

In just the little things that make it all worthwhile. on June 4, 2010 at 5:09 pm

I’m going to block out the other person’s name, just because i don’t have the person’s permission to put this up lol. you know who you are. you’re awesome !

[12:48:59 AM]__________its a pretty bold thing you’re doing
[12:48:59 AM] Bonnie Y Lau: Really?
[12:48:59 AM] Bonnie Y Lau: lol
[12:49:00 AM] __________: i respect that
[12:49:06 AM] __________: yeah
[12:49:26 AM] Bonnie Y Lau: Thanks ! I don’t know what you really mean by bold, but thanks 🙂
[12:49:32 AM] Bonnie Y Lau: I appreciate that !
[12:50:11 AM] __________: bold as in nobody actually does stuff like this…like its ttalked about but it takes guts to board the plane and be there for 7 weeks
[12:50:36 AM] Bonnie Y Lau: LOL. Awhh, thanks _______!
[12:50:40 AM] Bonnie Y Lau: I want to follow my heart.

so, the message, like my post before about the “butterflies in the stomache”, follow your heart. why be afraid, do something that’ll take you out of your comfort zone. experience new things. you owe it to yourself 🙂 thought i’d share this with everyone !

i love calling international people.

In just the little things that make it all worthwhile. on June 4, 2010 at 2:57 am

so… i thought that i would announce to the world how awesome skype is.

yes, i just called two people in Jamaica and it was awesome. I love

having international friends. I mean, as of now, i have friends in… let’s see.

Greece, Spain, India, Jamaica, Barbados, London, Bath(England), Vienna, Denmark,

Beijing, Prague, Switzerland and more. So please, give me your numbers so

I can talk to you via skype lol.

Honestly, I am so happy to have all these friends of different backgrounds, because

it allows me to learn how different we grew up and how different the way we dress,

appear, and just the way we conduct ourselves, how different it is. at the same time however,

having all these friends have made me realize something: at the end of the day, we’re all human. it doesn’t matter how different we might look, or act, we all want the same things. we are all scared of the same things, we all desire the same things.


feeling a bit… “the butterfly in stomache” feeling.

In just the little things that make it all worthwhile. on June 3, 2010 at 7:45 pm

(and no, i don’t feel weird because i took the malaria pills. lol.)

So yesterday, I finally took the malaria pills. For those of you who dont’ know, there are two kinds of malaria pills, daily and weekly ones. The weekly ones, you have more of a chance of experiencing side effects such as headaches, nausea, and you might hallucinate lol. I was honestly so scared that I would hallucinate, but actually, i didn’t–thank the lord–(hopefully i don’t today or tomorrow lol).

anyhow, i feel a bit… uneasy for some reason. Not that its a bad thing, just i feel… i don’t know. It’s finally hitting me. I’m going to Bangladesh. I’M GOING TO BANGLADESH!!! I”M GOING TO BANGLADESH!!!!!!!!!! and for 7 weeks. I think it’s finally hitting me now. After taking all those shots, and all the medication, it’s becoming real. I am so… excited. Maybe that’s why i feel a little bit off, cuz of my excitement. I dont’ know what awaits me there, in Bangladesh, but whatever it is, i know i will be able to conquer it. It’s hard for me to describe exactly how i feel. I want to go to the villages, i don’t want to live in the hotel. I want to live with the farmers. I want to do what they do. I want to wake up at 5:30am in the morning and do daily chores on the farm. I want the full on experience– afterall, what’s the point of me going, if all im going to do is stay in a fivestar hotel, and do nothing but shop? not much of a cultural experience, is it?

This, thinking about Bangladesh, has made me think about this past year a lot actually. Its been a month since school (schulich) has been over. And i’m… the only feeling to describe how i feel about Schulich and this year is gratefulness. I am grateful to have been able to gone to Harvard to compete. I am grateful for the mentors and friends I have made this year. I am also glad about deciding not to drop out of schulich. After all, I must know the rules, in order to break them, if you catch my drift :P. And who said the ride was going to be easy right? As a matter of fact, it’s going to be hard as it can ever be, but the things that are hard to get in life, are the things worth fighting for, and i believe that with 150% of my heart. I am a different person, after this year at Schulich. People ask me “Bonnie, what are you going to specialize in?” and my response a lot of times is “i dont’ know, maybe nothing” . and the look i get 80% of the times, is a look of pity. But you know what, they don’t know that, i am actually the one pitying them. Because i have the courage to experiment, and i am confident in myself enough to know that, it doesn’t matter what i specialize in, because i KNOW i will succeed.

So what do i have to say to all of you second year, and as a matter of fact, any year, schulich student. Go with your heart. Don’t give up, and do what you’re truly passionate about.

-bonbon

the effects of pressure.

In just the little things that make it all worthwhile. on June 2, 2010 at 11:55 pm

I’ve been thinking lately, especially working with the youth, its made me think a lot about the pressures there are at school and what we are teaching our children and the next generation.

I see the media and institutions breeding on the fact that people are insecure. As a matter of fact, all our outter things, materialistic things, our wants and desires, i feel, are a result of our insecurities. The way we talk, dress, slang that we use, all of that, is the same as everyone else and we choose to talk like everyone else because we are insecure.

Don’t get me wrong. I am guilty of all of the above. I constantly see myself wanting certain things, or even putting on makeup for example, to feel better about myself. But why? I should be confident in myself, or MORE confident in myself, shouldn’t i?

Institutions tell us constantly, how to dress and how to act; we listen, because I think we are insecure, which is fine (it is human nature after all), but the fact that many institutions are using our insecurities and molding us into robots and individuals with a skewed view of what the world is, is very scary. Some have the courage to fight back, some don’t. The question is, who will initiate then? And will they listen?

It’s important to become aware of why you do the things you do. I mean, I know i do certain things out of influence out of the media. Sometimes this awareness stops me from making certain decisions, and sometimes it doesn’t. But the important thing is, to be able to recognize it.

Just remember, don’t let a trend, a style, the way you look, the school you go to and your job DEFINE who you are. On the contrary, you should define a trend, the way you look, stand and represent the school and the job you work.